Monday, May 25, 2009

I'm Still Breathing...

Hello, people who don't read this!
I am, in fact, still alive, despite the rumors. I have been so incredibly busy in the last...oh 12 months or so, that I completely forgot that I even had a blog! Trust me that won't happen again (fingers crossed). Besides, I now have the option of mobile updates...I might be looking into that, but I don't think I would have enough space in my textbox!
Well, quite a bit has obviously happened in a year, but not anything particularly significant. I did come to a few realizations that I would like to point out, however.
Firstly, I am so incredibly sick of the pettiness that rules society, I'm about to just yell at everyone. Some of my friends have their own little group of people that I got sucked into somehow, and they just constantly find different reasons to fight with each other over nothing. I just want to smack them all and say, wake up and smell the logic!
The next realization is that nothing lasts forever, and there's no reason to cry about that. The end.
My third realization is more of an acknowledgment since I've already known about it for a while: I have to move. I have to get out of this little one-horse town and chase the crazy-ass dreams I've had since I was a kid. There's no getting around it, it has to happen. Because my previous realization brought around the fact that if I don't run now, I'll never get the chance again. I don't want to end up stuck somewhere and unhappy for the rest of my life because I didn't do what I needed to. I've only got one life to live and I'll be damned if I let anything get in my way.
I feel so much better now that I have that off my chest. For now, I will be staying put, but only to build the necessary transport into my future. It is going to be as temporary as I can make it. I will not put down any more emotional roots than I already have, and I won't be pulling the ones I've already created, because you always need that network of love to fall back on.
But believe me when I say this: I'm bustin loose, I'm leavin this place.